eLoNz was horrible to me but I survived …

Some X users are praising eLoNz because they made money, it seems, but I did not make any. Fact is he leeched off me for a few months, I lost my peace of mind, and I was already fighting other battles. I have also been purchasing blue for the last three months, the irony.

Why was I targeted? Most probably because I am a brilliant woman and he  obviously needed me, but he made the decision to exploit me to look more capable than he really is, instead of connecting in good terms. It seems like it’s finally over now and I’m resentful, I was extremely hurt, it was exhausting. Good for people making money as creators on his  platform, but did I have to be mistreated by the richest man in the world because he’s weak? It was a mix of sociopathic fun and illegal business for him and his pawns, a blind use of power that I found absolutely appalling.

Life loves irony

I liked the character to begin with to be honest, I’ve always had a thing for space, and after I saw the movie Passengers, I dreamed a lot, like a little girl and a hopeful woman trying to escape the dull ordinary, about going out there to start a new life. I like power, in a good way, not the villain type, because you can achieve a lot with it and having powerful allies is always a good thing. I found him interesting and even enjoyed listening to him before the vibe became sticky and hostile. He sadly quickly turned into a parrot, he  started using my own language, stealing all my ideas, and he also kept repeating the same things he said many times before, over and over again, which is annoying.

I even thought I might work for him or with him someday. Since he was parroting me, it seemed like he needed my creativity and knowledge, but he chose the clownish way to deal with it: dishonesty and deceit. As a « man » to know, I can honestly say he looked attractive to me at some point, but after his entourage became intrusive online, my interest vanished, the thrill was gone. As a creative smart woman with self-love and a business to protect, why would I like someone who shows no respect and takes advantage of me? I see no reason for that, I am pragmatic, with a sharp mind and goals, I don’t cave, I protect what is mine. Someone’s ego trip has no impact on my faith in me. 

What happened?

Many  tend to choose the wrong side when it comes to dealing with me, they  think it is possible to take advantage instead of collaborating. They’re wrong though, because I’m a fighter, and I’d rather blow everything up under their feet than let someone steal what’s mine and disrespect my experience, my worth, my hard work and my intellectual property. I think  leeches are cowards, and before anyone chooses this path they should think very seriously, because if it involves trying to violate my boundaries and plunder my property, that means war and I’m here to win.  I’ve already won, I use my own brain to produce, I come up with my own ideas when they’re just stalking to copy and paste.

His thirsty entourage  became invasive, focusing on me as a source for free use, and even  though I asked for it to stop, it continued, he kept it going for 9  months and laughed it off. I sometimes like sarcasm and dark humour, but  certainly not at my expense. There’s nothing I find more repugnant than  a rich man leeching off a woman to look smarter than he is. The irony, I  even dreamed of having a red Roadster in the past, and now every time I  see a Tesla I can’t breathe right, I get angry, it’s a physical  reaction. Too bad, but I will handle it and go back very soon to my normal calm state.

What about empathy?

Freedom  of speech is crucial to me, as is the protection of children. It seems  odd to me that he promoted the Tate brothers (or maybe that was his lousy brand strategist Ross), and the concept of “free speech” turned  into a delusional « truth bazinga » theme because his social media strategy went off (due to incompetence at the top apparently) with all  the robotic characters praising him in the void and him answering back to them to confirm he was all that, which is  awkward.

Empathy in not about humour as he expressed in a post, it  is about « localized » targeted more frequent practical steps towards good. An honest man would automatically ask himself some important  fundamental questions and find answers by thinking about them  rationally, with a pragmatic point of view, and not with a vision  blurred by narcissism, childish amusement and complacency.

• Do I really care about the well-being of the person I am tormenting and ripping off?
• Is what I am doing ruining her life?
• Does she have a good life when she is being savagely exploited?
• Can  she reach her goals and be happy: having the good quality of life she  worked for before I showed up and turned her into a virtual gadget to  use for my entertainment and branding process that others get paid for  and not her?
• Am I really a gentleman as I like to publicly portray myself?

Empathy  has nothing to do with humour unless it’s for peer bonding. Humour doesn’t open doors professionally, pay your bills or give you peace of  mind, unless comedy is your profession.

I keep moving forward

A happy ending can also be realistic. What is particularly fascinating about autofiction that imagines the future and reflects the process of manifestation is that it remains dynamic, beyond our complete control. While we make decisions in our own lives, we can still encounter surprises—sometimes negative, but there’s always an open window for happiness and enchantment. The possibility of unexpected blessings, such as love or other gifts that can significantly improve your life and make it (finally) worth living again, persists as long as you are alive and striving for success.

It is true that some people are already blessed because  they have a caring entourage working on making small and big positive  things possible for them, and the more of that good and nourishing  energy you have around you, the luckiest you get, but even the less  fortunate who work hard (without privileges) can sometimes be pleasantly  surprised and then begin to be blessed and for good. I will be happy as I deserve.

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