Checkmate – By Author, Poet and Essayist Hella Ahmed, 09/03/2026 © All rights reserved


A broken heart’s path to winning the real game of

In life, you get what you pay for—and you pay

for what you wished for.

Don’t wish. There will be no magical outcome. Don’t hope that what you blindly love will suddenly love you back, or that something proven selfishly human—just like everybody else—will transform overnight into a creature with open arms and honest, caring altruism.

Life is not the movie you discover and are surprised by. It is the script you write, then the steps you follow to experience exactly what you planned and committed to—not what some exterior protective force was supposed to grant you out of love and divine care.

The biggest mistakes I ever made in life came out of love. Not because I was stupid (I have a high IQ and I’m gifted in many ways when it comes to talent and intellect—not to brag, but that’s simply the truth), not because I was naive either, but because something bigger than myself pulled me toward a certain belief: that light cannot be destroyed by darkness, and that if I was the kind of person who helps others in need expecting nothing in return, if I could feel and show genuine gratitude, if I could close my eyes and feel overwhelming love even when reciprocation never came—I must be connected to a higher source.

Little did I know I was a spiritual person. But like in everything, you learn the hard way when you follow an unclean intuition. Let me explain: your intuitive capacities sharpen once you truly understand that darkness will always come at you—to test your boundaries, to flirt with you—because it craves the thrill of meeting its opposite. It needs the excitement of challenge. 

Sometimes it even wants you to tame it; it seeks moments of connection. But ultimately, it chooses the power of radical freedom, the urge to be the one delivering checkmate at the end.

Once you internalize the fatality of disloyalty, you become the one saying checkmate—even though you stayed clean, never hurting people for crumbs of power or money. You can play the devil’s game without becoming the devil: that thirsty vampire who seduces, kills, then reappears mesmerizing with a new glow.

Is the truth behind everything I’m saying that the ultimate goal is to win the game? Yes—but not the game of deceit. The real game is choosing intimacy over addiction to possibility, choosing reality over ego and fantasy.

The win lives inside you. The win is giving up on what will never let you thrive. Connection means learning to live with a broken heart until one day you wake up happy again—because love is never about begging. And succeeding means thriving, striving for growth, and claiming well-deserved success.

Everyone is out there chasing money because it’s true: money buys happiness. So don’t fool yourself into thinking fantasy will buy you security or a safe road to love. Awareness is success.

Be a loner if you need to. When you stop absorbing their hate, their lame excuses, their conniving strategies, you feel free and empowered—and that’s exactly when you meet real love.

Cut the cords as many times as necessary. Set strong boundaries. Call shit what it is—just shit. That is the only way you will ever be at peace with yourself and win the bigger game: the game of life.

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