A Sopranos vibe but cheaper..

Imagine a gangster like scene with a super rich guy asking a professional for help, asserting at the same time dominance by refusing to pay for the services, because paying would make his (already real) needs real. How can a woman coach me? But I need her! That’s the dilemma. This messy situation happened to me more than once, you will know everything about it in my coming book. There are some similarities with what was going on in the Sopranos, the gangster developed feelings for his therapist, he complained about the money spent on the meetings since gangsters don’t like to pay for things, but he did pay for therapy and he considered his therapist as a professional who was helping him. Of course, they eventually parted.

The foolish mission

Some people were and are on a mission to prove to me and to the world that they are smarter than me while desperately depending on a “disconnected’ but very much connected kind of relationship to me. The premises are all wrong though, having feelings for someone and expecting many things doesn’t make that person obligated to admire or hate back, or/and give what’s requested to anybody feeling entitled. It was never about me personally, it was always about the inner struggles and needs of narcissists, about their vulnerabilities and the desires they denied or refused to face.

Sadly, I had and have to metabolize for many of them confused so-called business people a lot of their mixed-up emotions, without getting paid of course. I am the therapist/coach they don’t want to reach to following the standard process because they rate thieves. Also, the pattern consists on me publicly expressing my refusal to be an appointed, without consent, volunteer, and for that to be perceived as an insult to them, because they feel entitled. Again, they are thieves. Their paid entourage becomes aware of their obsession and bizarre ways of relating to me, and so they gang up to use me while punishing me for honour. It also obviously turns into a big opportunity for sycophants to join in and play to be supported by my confused admirers at the top. So much petiteness is the total opposite of charming.

Viral boosts for copied contents

Now plagiarists and a lot of loonies addicted to social media platforms to fill their stretched out professional lives with the illusion of success are getting viral boosts for what they copy and paste (borrowed ideas and paraphrases), you wonder how any so-called truth can be taken seriously when the scams are visible and actually spoken about. It’s like a big nonsense going on, and it is not because they keep repeating that the vibe is clean and beautiful that it is. The majority is not foolish and very much aware of the dynamics behind the scenes of some sketchy success presented as glorious.

When a big account is constantly sub-tweeting me, using my content as a continuous creativity boost, collecting marketing ideas, but never interacting with me, it is because they don’t want to give me that special viral boost. They would have to respect boundaries and be financially fair to me if they did. When a collaboration is really happening instead of an invasion and commercial parasitism, people contact each other and make offers.

When someone chooses to fake or force an association that is lucrative on his side only:

1- he is using a creator’s content and input without having asked for consent and negotiated a financial retribution

2- he is leeching off someone’s visibility

3- he is stealing expertise

4- he is violating someone’s ground and distorting a brand’s reputation.

It is abuse, theft and disrespect.  

On another level

It is not because a toxic narcissist can’t value me and is having a blast belittling me with his privileged friends and his army of sycophants that I am not brilliant. In fact, they wouldn’t be so obsessed with me if I was not smart and very special to them, they need me to be creative and get busy. The way they mock and laugh doesn’t hurt me. They are showing their limits and a low level, it’s like they want to get out of themselves and into someone else to feel better.

How can someone who talks about humanity and supporting creators be on my back day and night?

There are 8 billion people on earth, why can’t I get paid for my creativity and immense knowledge, sell my services and my books, be liked, be celebrated, have subscribers and make money? I can, and if a few obsessed individuals have been trying to ruin me because they don’t know how to love me properly, I wish them inner peace and some levelling up. I will always stand for myself, I know my worth, I am creative and brilliant, I am precious, I’m luminous.

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