Diary of a nobody that no one reads obviously

To engage in the co-design of happiness is the joy of good-hearted connection. I see a lot of people getting in touch online, making friends, promoting each other, generating business deals and money, which is great. I also see envious individuals becoming extremely paranoid about a talent flirting with the possibility of a serious breakthrough, getting the kind of exposure that leads to good career and relationship opportunities. They start acting as if they were witnessing a catastrophe when it is only legitimate progress. But why?

The myth of superiority

The fear of no longer being able to abuse ruins the mood for many. As they get very jealous, anxiety strikes because of uncertainty about the future and the improvement of competition. Strangely, a lot of humans feel emotionally hurt when achievements go beyond the limits they set for people they focus on to measure up against while climbing the stairs of success. It is simply at odds with the logic of their superiority complex to see someone getting more than them. People exhibiting narcissistic behavior use others without guilt and laugh about it on luxurious vacations. They go on happily living the good life they believe they deserve, with no doubt about it and no regard for those they selfishly exploit.

An abusive opportunist basically feels threatened by the eventuality of no longer being able to enjoy success based on abuse, as the victim grows strong, making allies to create the best life. Abusers watch you constantly and engage in passive-aggressive hate, both individually and as organized groups sticking together to use the vulnerable and the less fortunate, covering the crime scene with the same old fake love talk. They obsess, as if there’s no one else to spot among 8 billion people on Earth, calling the target a sycophant because the project of being independent and happy for a so-called « peasant » is taboo.

Too many moralizers are self-absorbed; they make themselves the glorified center of attention while they teach what is « good manners » or is not. I specialized in Asperger’s syndrome, comorbidity, therapy, and coaching when I was studying psychology at university, and it really broadened my knowledge of human behavior. It opened my eyes a bit more to diversity, the paths of perception, and empathy. Obviously, not all humans look at the world with the same eyes, but there is a common ground where we can unite in peace and respect for limits, and it’s only doable when we don’t make everything about us.

The path of creativity

II was told as a little girl that curiosity was a nasty flaw, and that didn’t make sense to me; how do you grow then? I felt ashamed of my need to ask questions and find answers. It was obviously a strategy some adults used to keep kids quiet, without reflecting on how this statement was bad conditioning with long-term impact. Closing the windows of perception can only be devastating. In adulthood, there is a huge difference between healthy curiosity and hurtful intrusion: being curious about me, planning on making my life better is super attractive, and it is definitely the opposite of being intrusive and invasive to take control and force an association meant to benefit one side only. In other words, it is being attentive and proactive versus selfish and abusive.

As a creative entrepreneur following your path with integrity, you come across many people calling you difficult to deal with when they simply can’t fool you or enslave you. Some of the worst humans specialize in subtle hate speech while impersonating kindness. If you’re fiercely protecting your ground when targeted by this kind, you’ll be portrayed as being too aggressive.

Common tactical moves have most of the time something to do with money and lust, as in material gains and career advancement, courtship, and loyalty. Manipulation does not necessarily hurt people as it is used to get ahead; manipulation is strategy unless it becomes a crime, as all rules are broken. And frankly telling someone who is wronging you, « Don’t sabotage my work, don’t try to use me, » is a speech coming from a place of love, self-love. There is absolutely nothing offensive about asserting your limits and rights, but it will be used against you by abusers who don’t care about your feelings or the truth. They just want to look like winners; they can always put another layer on what is highlighted as the truth at some point.

Change management and truth

Who is trustworthy and who is not? This is the theme for many arguments, and if we simply examine some of what the biggest moralizers constantly scrutinizing others are doing on the side, we can easily notice that a lot of them are very busy covering up their own flaws. Everybody wants to look good and make money; imposters and the selfish never seem to mention the amount of money they make by taking advantage of many people. They only seem to find it outrageous that anybody they want to keep down can reach a higher standard professionally and materially. That’s how they nurture the illusion of what the elite is and what it should be, protecting huge social gaps while spreading some tiny positive news about inclusion and good intentions.

When all does not go perfectly, right away, for someone resourceful thriving for progress, or somebody basically stepping off the beaten track of a modern slavery-chosen small existence, firmly moving towards change, lame comments are made as attempts to cancel the success process: he/she should have figured it all out before. Even when you are very prepared, you cannot 100% understand a system you don’t have full access to. This kind of knowledge requires an immersive experience that gives the ability to freely navigate and dig in, making problem-solving effective and reality-based. And that simply can’t be done without the help of creative, innovation-driven thinking. In fact, this applies to both personal and professional levels.

The game of double bind and gaslighting

It’s hard to be unbothered by some perverted moves, like someone with a proclaimed « verified » and « trustworthy » voice being the self-proclaimed judge of what’s funny or not, cool or not, of what you’re personally allowed to seek professionally, accusing people of being conceited and self-centered.

Double bind and gaslighting : 1. You need to do as I wish to be doing the right thing, denying your inner self in the process, ignoring your needs. If you choose to be true to yourself instead, taking your feelings into consideration and daring to be opinionated, you are into mediocrity. 2. Your perception of reality is distorted; I know the truth better than you (and my truth cancels your right to be you).

We basically need to block some circles virtually, and also physically for our safety. Learning to ignore interference, whether some egomaniacs like it or not, is crucial. Everyone can achieve goals with the right mindset and some help. Misinformation will be used to protect the powerful, but it’s not really doable to use it to manipulate clear-sighted individuals capable of critical thinking. An illusion can be created around a center of attention, a person, and this constructed idea will be used to influence those vulnerable to misinformation. However, there are obviously more connected, well-informed, and insightful people, here and there, than misinformed and easy-to-fool ones.

Better laugh than cry about it

Humans are not perfect, and sometimes we are terrible to deal with because of ignorance, narcissism, and avidity. We must, though, keep searching for light. I personally think that we waste our time when we forget to laugh, and we certainly don’t all laugh at the same jokes or have the same taste in humor since our brains are not wired the same and we come from different educational backgrounds. And I am ending this piece on this note: what is the dark side of laughter? When you fall into a pit at night and laugh at yourself.

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